My Stupid Mouth

My random thoughts, rants, vents, and gushes.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

New Year's Update

It's been a while since I've posted anything so I thought I'd play catch-up before the year ends tonight.

-Christmas was alright. Did the whole family thing as usual...I dominated the annual Hold 'Em tourney Christmas night (oh yeah baby!) It was Matthew and I's first Christmas together, he got me a super sweet South Park calendar for our dates we have coming up, an awesome photo album thingie with our pictures and captions in it (awwww!!!), and this huge ass teddy bear that I've been sleeping with everynight that he's not here with me. He got me thoughtful things and I just got him books, DVDs, and a CD...ehh I suck. I'll do better next year.

-I found out earlier this week that I actually passed my Pharmacy Tech exam! I was in shock literally. I hope that whoever made the mistake of giving me a passing grade gets a raise haha. Speaking of raises, I should be getting one now that I passed and I'm certified...which is awesome because I hate being poorer than Kenny.

-Tonight is New Year's Eve. I will be spending it with Matthew and his friends and family at his house. We will be getting drunk and shooting fireworks (what a combination huh? lol). God I love fireworks. They are just awesome, and I love combining different ones for a little "mini display", it makes me feel cool. As far as the year goes...I think it went by pretty fast. I've made some very cool friends in Manny & Jess. I've fallen in love for the first time ever and it's utterly amazing. I lost about 25 pounds and I'm hoping to lose some more before Jess & Wane's wedding this coming May. Overall, a pretty good year! Hopefully 2006 can be just as good.

Happy New Year everyone, have fun and be safe!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to all those I've come to know. I hope everyone has an awesome one, one filled with stuffing our faces with delicious food until we want to puke lol.

I would like to apologize for last's amazing how stupid I can get, and I hardly drank what I would call alot! So I'm sorry, don't take me too seriously when I get like that, it's just the insecure monster rearing it's stupid ugly head.

Things I'm thankful for: My good good friends (you know who you are), it feels so awesome to just be able to talk to you guys and not worry about any judgement. For my best friend Manny, you rock dude, even if you are mexican. The Park Manny, THE EFFIN PARK lol. For my boyfriend (it amazes me that I can even say that lol) Matthew, you are incredibly sweet and caring to me, I can't tell you how happy I am that we met and started this up. You're amazing to me, and I can't wait to see where this goes. For my family, all 5450654321307 billion of you. It's such a special family built on closeness and love, I wouldn't trade it away for the world.

There are many more things that I am thankful for but these are some of the most important to me. Again, I hope you all have an awesome day...and GO BRONCOS! ;)

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Harry Potter and Fucking Tests!

I had my tech test today. God damn it that fucking sucked! I know for sure I didn't pass, mostly because none of th stuff that we went over in class was on the test!!! As soon as I read the first page of the test I knew I was in trouble. We had only gone over math calculations and laws in class and all of the questions on my test were about drugs and specific details involving them. I was fucking pissed.

I called my mom crying after I got out of the exam. Man, I just feel like such a dissapointment. So many people told me "you'll do fine, you're so smart" and now I just feel stupid because I let them down. Hell, I'm crying still as I type this. It's such bullshit! I know I studied less than a month when most people study for at least 6 months, but damn I hate looking so stupid...fuck this!

On a lighter note, Harry Potter kicked ass. I loved it from beginning to end honestly. They kind of re did some of the story so there wasn't any Dobby or Winky in this one, but it still came out okay. Mad Eye Moody was fucking awesome, they did a wonderful job portraying him. The mermaid scene and the graveyard scene were pretty damn wicked. I looooooved the Ron and Hermione angst, such a good build up to what hopefully ends with them being together in book 7.

Besides the movie being great, the company was pretty awesome too. Matthew's sister is a cool chick from what I gathered talking to her, so it was nice to finally meet her after being so entertained by her on the forum. Matthew was awesome to be around as always, though I must admit I thought he was going to dissapointment me halfway through the movie. But he didn' came through in the end and made my night so "fantabolous" that I didn't really want to say goodbye. I was surprised that Ryan actually did come, after all his "I'm not coming/I'm coming" BS, he's always good for some entertainment. And last but not least Jess came too. It was so funny just the way we would laugh at just stupid stuff that happened on screen where no one else noticed or just didn't find it funny, but we did lol. It was just really fun being with a few other people that love HP just as much as I do if not more.

I hope to see it at least 2 more times before it goes out of theaters then I'll just be in anticipation of the DVD release!

Friday, November 18, 2005

Goblet of Fire, FINALLY!

After months and months of waiting and counting down, the day is finally here! Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire was released at midnight last night! And you better believe I would've been there had it not been for working this morning. But no worries, I will be in attendance at the 9:30pm showing, accompanied by about 10 other people including Matthew (hint: teehee).

I can't wait to see how they portray the Graveyard and the Yule Ball scenes. Those are probably the two I'm most looking foward to, plus all of the Ron & Hermione angst, woo! I know some parts will be dissapointing, mostly those that are cut out...considering GoB is bible length there's no way they could fit it into a 2 and half hour movie but I'm excited anyway.

I shall return after the movie for a quick review and some comments.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005


Yeah that was a giggle. And no, it doesn't happen very often (unless alcohol or other drugs are involved) so enjoy it while you can, lol. I've just found something, rather someone, to make me giggle and gush lately, and it's awesome!

And while I'm so happy, others have been down. I can't help but feel guilty about it either. It sucks for them, though it's not a big deal in the end, it's sucking right now...and I just want to make it better for them. But that's pretty much impossible, I shouldn't butt-in, and I won't, but I'm not sure what else I can do besides just listening. I suppose I'll just have to see how things go.

Saturday, October 22, 2005


I had planned on going to the game tonight with a couple of friends, and one friend from Cali. Turns out that one of my friends and the Cali friend got lower seated I would be sitting way the fuck at the top with some unknown people. YEY just what I wanted. Thank god for Kori and LJ, who offerend me LJ's other seat. It was much lower and better company than I was going to receive. Thanks a million Kori and LJ you saved my night from being a total bummer.

Moving on. So the plan was to go to dinner BEFORE the game. So of course I didn't eat beforehand, so we meet up and my friends house freaking 2 hours before the game and they are all like "oh it's too late to go eat, let's just go to the SBC". WTF I'm starving to death and there's TONS of time and we have to go to the SBC? Of course that information would have been USEFUL had we not been already in a car. I would've just taken my own car damn it. So there I was, starving, and I wasn't going to pay a million dollars for the SBC food that is no where near my "Decently healthy foods to eat" list. So I starved, and it's too late to eat now, so it just pisses me off more.

That's not even the worst of it. My plans were to meet up with LJ at 7 outside the SBC. Well since I THOUGHT we were going to go eat, I wouldn't be waiting outside long. BUT since we got there at 5:45 and I didn't have my ticket I had to wait outside, and my "friends" just went inside and didn't offer to wait with me. So YEY for me sitting by myself.

Ugh too much bitching for one night...I don't even want to discuss the game.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Damn you Bill Miller's!

Okay so yesterday I thought I was being pretty good with having a salad from Bill Miller's for lunch. I was running late and didn't have time to bring my lunch to work like I usually do and I was hungry so I ordered Bill Miller's.

You would think that with ordering a salad that I was trying to health concious. With that COMMON SENSE you wouldn't think that the small ass container of ranch that they give you with the salad had 450 fucking calories! Oh but yes it did! I looked it up today on the internet just for grins, yeah I wasn't grinning once I saw that, ugh! Granted it's the best ranch in the world but damnit giving you a 450 calorie container of ranch with your salad really defeats the entire purpose of trying to eat healthy.

So I say DAMN YOU BILL MILLER'S, damn you all to hell! I feel duped, cheated, lied to, and most of all saddened. I've lost all faith in you Bill Miller, no longer will you be my source for a cheat day. *sigh*